November 18, 2018
Dear Lili,
I hardly know how to begin this post, but begin I must. Things are, well, uncertain in my life right now.
A week ago Tuesday a tumor was discovered in my bladder. I don’t know how bad it is or is not yet, but I’m scheduled for surgery tomorrow to find out more. I didn’t ever want to have to write this kind of news to you, but there it is. The doctor seems very positive, and in fact, the cancer has not spread to other organs, so that much is good news. So I’m keeping a positive mind, and praying for the best.
In any case, whatever happens, please know that I never abandoned you. Know that I fought hard to be a part of your life, and that I wish I could have been a part of it growing up. But that was not to be.
Know that I love you with all my heart, and that no matter what happens, know that your father loves you without reservation, and that if the chance does come to us someday, my arms are always open to you.
If you do read this blog, I’ll be at the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Hospital in Nakano-ku, Room 846 until November 23. I would love to see you again, now more than ever.
You are now and always have been in my heart.
Love always,
Daddy ❤ ❤ ❤
Me, your Uncle David, and Nonnie and Poppie circa 1962
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Update: Nov. 21. 2018
Looks like my surgery went very well, Lili. I’ll be leaving the hospital tomorrow, on Nov. 22. I’m going to need a second surgery in December, but my prognosis looks very good indeed. Your Dad is pretty tough, and I’m going to beat this thing so someday, I hope, I can see my sweet daughter again and tell her how much I’ve missed her and how much I love her!
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