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Dear Lili,

How strange and sad it is that it’s been 22 years since we spent Christmas together. It was always such a special time for us, filled with love and happiness. 

I keep reaching out to you, hoping that someday you’ll come across this blog — if you haven’t already — and seek to rediscover who you are, who you were, before others taught you how to feel. I console myself as best I can with the knowledge that the bond we shared as father and daughter was real. I was the first man in your life. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, the one who taught me the meaning of unconditional love. You must know that I would have done anything for you. Still would. 

Anyway, I know that the only way we could ever be reunited is if that is what you wish. I hope it comes to pass.

Until then, here are some pictures of Christmases Past, of happy time I spent with you.

You are always in my heart. Always have been. Always will be.

Your Dad

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CHRISTMAS 1998 (Our first Christmas together at Nonnie and Poppies in Florida)


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CHRISTMAS 2002 (We spent Christmas alone this year as your mother was traveling in New York. But we went to a nice Christmas party at one of my student’s home, and later had Christmas at Higashi-Nakano.)




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Christmas 2003 (Our last Christmas together.)

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I gave you a camping bear just like this one. I wonder if you still have it.

We were going to go camping together, but like so many of the things we were suppoosed to do, it never happened. I remember you were so excited about the idea. You drew a campfire and sticks with crayons and pretended that we were camping together. You said that you “wanted to roast weenies on the fire.” How much fun that would have been.

Oh, Lili. I’ll never give up on you until my dying breath. I pray every day that you will somehow recover your memories, that you will somehow cast off the fake, implanted memories of me given to you by “others,” and that you will truly remember what we shared together. Despite what those people did to you, I know that the bond between a father and his daughter lasts forever. It know it will for me, anyhow.

Waiting for you here to seek the truth of your life again.

You are always in my heart.

Love,

Your only father

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Dear Lili,

Another year has come and gone. Another year not having seen my only child. Another year wondering who you are now, what you are doing with your life, or even knowing whether or not you are safe and sound.

People often ask me why I don’t just reach out to you. The fact is I have, as have your uncle and your cousins. When I did so through Facebook Messenger, you disappeared completely. My last connection to you — a few recent photos and vague information about your education and interests — was taken from me in that moment. I wonder if you could possibly imagine the pain and heartache I felt at that moment. Thus was the effect of parental alienation.

For your birthday, my only wish would be to give back to you what was taken from you — your real father, your uncles and aunts, your cousins, your history. They even took away your name.

But I don’t have that choice. Those things are not for me to give, unless you want them.

For you, 21 years have passed since I last saw you. For me, it was only yesterday. Time has changed nothing. You are still the daughter I loved with all my heart. You were then, and still are, the light of my life, and despite the heartache I have had to endure, I regret nothing, and would do it all again to experience those few short years we had together.

You are always in my heart. ❤️

Love always,

Dad

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And I know who is to blame. You may too someday, and realize that you’ve been lied to your whole life. I know I would never forgive those people.




Recognize any of this, Lili?

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…you believed everything you were told about me.

…you never gave me a chance to tell you my side of the story.

…you seem to have forgotten all the happy times we spent together, and the love and affection I showered on you.

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I know you may not remember how happy we were as father and daughter, but I do. I’ll remember for the both of us.

You are always in my heart, Lili.

Love always,

Your Dad


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